I have a lot of apps on my phone. I love technology. I struggle with many things including memory and organization and the calendar and alarm apps help tremendously. I have a number of health apps as well. Too many. I have Noom, My Fitness Pal, Planet Fitness, Fitbod, Weight loss and body tracker, Samsung Health, Google Fit, Water drink reminder, Plank Workout, The Walk, FitOn, DanceFitMe, Just Fit. Sigh….That’s a lot. But my supermodel body has yet to emerge.

It’s because I have all these tools and knowledge about what I need to do to be more healthy, but I have not surrendered to the process. I will log meal and eat lots of unhealthy meals and still log them in. It reminds me of my spiritual life before recovery. I had been in church my whole life-even when I was living blatantly outside of God’s will. I knew I should pray, read my bible, and not have inappropriate physical relationships. I had tools and knowledge. I would repent, but I didn’t have the strength not to turn back. I was so convicted that I almost lost my mind. Even when I had let go of many vices, I was still empty.

I needed to surrender to God’s process. I needed to pursue an authentic relationship with Jesus the way I pursued worldly things. I learned that knowing about Jesus and trusting Jesus were two different things. Jesus is the power behind the transformation. Tools are nice and necessary but surrendering to the One who can do for us what we can’t is essential. I need Him as much to do the good things as I did to stop doing the bad things.  I need God to give me the strength to take care of His Temple so that I can be useful in His Kingdom.  What do you need God’s strength for today?