Let me tell you that retreat was WILD and WONDERFUL.  It reminded me of my even if NOT.  As long as I can remember, I wanted to be married.  I wanted that one person that I belonged to and who belonged to me.  And it would be us against the world.  But in reality I thought that I was too broken for anyone to want.  So anyone who showed any interest in me became my last chance for happiness.  I compromised every value I had to keep them.  Did whatever I could to keep them.  But inevitably I’d end up abandoned.  But God.  Through my church family at WFR Church  and Celebrate Recovery – WFR I realized that I already belonged to someone-Jesus. I was just to broken to believe it.  Oh In my mind I knew but my heart couldn’t accept it.  He is my great love.  He loved me when I made terrible decisions just as much as He loves the new creation He’s continuing to grow in me.  And I don’t have to earn His love. I get to show Him my love by following Him.  He knows I’m a mess sometimes and that’s ok because I now believe that His grace is sufficient. Even if God never sends my forever person I’m ok with that in a way I never thought I could be.  I am satisfied with Him.  I am complete in Him.  If you had just saved me and not begun healing me and giving me a forever family, it would have been enough. Be blessed.